Yes, it has been a while since I last blogged. I make no apologies. Life sometimes happens. Everynight I lay in bed and think of the things that I would like to post. The next day they are a distant memory. I am making lunches or fixing breakfast or driving someone somewhere. I am studying or reading or playing.
My kids do not understand that when they hear someone say that parents do this and don't do that (things like play and still build forts with their kids) because my childrens parents still do these things. What fun is having children if you can't get on the floor and play? Watch their imaginations grow and listen to their stories. Even as my oldest is on the cusp of turning 13, I still hold her hand, when she allows. I brush her hair and I even pluck her eyebrows! I lay in her bedroom floor and listen to music with her. We talk about what things are "cool" and how to cope with the world. She asks me questions about my childhood. How do I answer? That's a hard one. I didn't always live my life in a way that is worthy. But, I wish for her to not make my mistakes. I am in awe of her, she is smart beyond her years, yet she is still my little girl. She still wants to be held and still wants her daddy to wrestle with her. And doesn't understand why he can't.
I have come to a very hard realization this week. I was asked to undertake a new calling or "position" if you will, at churh. It will involve me being gone from the house every morning during the time that the rest of my family is getting ready for school/work. I worried that my son would fall apart. I refuse to let him be. I am very emotional over him because not only is he my last child but, due to my age, I doubt that I will have anymore children. This realization has hit me very hard as I approach my 38th birthday. I look at him and it seems just like yesterday he was my little baby. I will have a harder time adjusting to the morning's than he will. He will probably cry and whine at first, this will make him tougher, right?
I pray for my children that they will turn out well, what parent doesn't? I teach them correct principles. I love them and understand that God saw ME, Tina Liverman, fit to be their mother. What a huge responsibility.
I have thought a lot about the last 10 years. Since we just embarked on the new year and a new decade. Do you realize growing up I thought that I was worthless. Not worthy of love, to give love or to feel anything but shame. But, the last 10 years have proven me wrong. I am so in love with my husband and he with me. I have finally found my place among the world. It is not always a pretty place. But I am so glad that I have the knowledge of the gospel in my life. I have the love of a wonderful family and a loving Heavenly Father.
The last 10 years have been so fun. A learning experience. I have lived all over the U.S. I have made freinds and met all kinds of people that I would not have met otherwise. I have dealt with real setbacks and tragedy. My husband is blind. Don't feel sorry. It has made us appreciate things so much more. To have THIS and it be gone makes one realize just what really is important. I have lost my 2 grandmothers whom I love dearly. They are still missed and I still think of what their reactions would be to certain things that happen. I have rekindled relationships and I have lost relationships. A natural way of life. I know. The next 10 years will hold much of the same. I grow spirtually and I grow wiser. I love the age that I am now. I love that I am best friends with my husbad. I feel sorry for the wives whose husbands prefer to spend their free time away. How blessed am I?
I look forward to what the next 10 years brings to the Liverman household.
Sydney is a chunker! She is about 7 months in this picture. I am so proud of the young woman Sydney has become. I hope that you have enjoyed looking at Sydney growing up. For anyone who knows her knows how special and funny and whitty she is! She keeps me laughing with tears or yelling with tears. I told her she is so pationate. It's all or nothin' with that girl. I cry to think of the girl I am loosing but I rejoice in the woman she is becoming. I love you Sydney, happy birthday!
I guess I forgot the hat that day, she is sportin' a do-rag
Sydney at 18 months-love that girl!
on our way to Utah, 3 days in the car! she did great-look at that happy face! 3 years old.
Sydney at 3
I know I jumped in age. This is right before we moved back to NC, this is our front yard in Maryland. Sydney is 9.
she is about 10 here.
This is the latest picture of Sydney, almost 13 here.
Then 2 days later Sydney had a Halloween party. I figured that Gage would be alsleep in the back bedroom while the other kids had their party outside. My mom came to help out which was nice. Gage was still bouncing off the walls, which is NOT a good thing to do after having tonsils removed. The weather was calling for rain, for we had to move the party indoors. I did not want 12 12 year old in my house eatting and doing whatever. But, it was whatis was. They were soooo good and respectfull. I was really impressed. So we had them over for 2 hours and we had to keep Gage "entertained" in the bedroom with ghost storis and balloon games. Yeah, Sydney looks a little grown. Not to happy with what she is wearing. After the I saw the pictures, I realized she looked a little to grown for my taste and I have forbid her to wear the dress that she bought at the thrift store. These are the actuall pictures of getting ready. This is her friend Maris. 
The past 2 weeks has been crazier than usual around the Liverman home. 2 Thursday's ago, Gage has his tonsils taken out here is a picture before we left for the surgical center..
He was wide eyed and busy tailed
Last week we went to Nags Head for a couple of days. The last hurrah of summer, if you will. We stayed at my dad's aging camper. But hey, it served it's purpose, right? Plus, we had a ton of fun. Who say's you have to stay at a fancy hotel or have the best of whatever to have fun? We had a meaningful FHE (family home evening) while there plus, me and Sydney got some serious shopping in. I started school yesterday and the kids today. Sydney ws excited and ready. Gage was a little apprehensive. I will post 1st day pictures later. My case load is full this semester. But it's the last one, hurray. Then another 2 years at the university. We will be crazy busy from here to Christmas. I might come up for air once in a while, if I havn't gone crazy. 
